'Getting 'lost' is only natural. Feeling 'rage' happens. Reaching 'EX/TC' is something entirely different...'
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Friday 25 May 2012

Losing For Fun...

And in that one moment you see everything you've worked towards implode. Your world becomes a sappy mess, spawned from the unwanted residue, scrapped off the back of your worst nightmare. Everything that meant so much to you suddenly means very little. And you see that now. You see that it was all superficial. And fake. Always fake. Always a glossed over, primed up lie. Just the way you originally intended. You were happy. It made sense until you lost control. Things were said that couldn't be taken back. The masks came off and the truths came out. Before you lose it all, you have to have it all.

I just starting losing.

Wednesday 23 May 2012

‘I don't know’...

So here we are again. In this same conversation. Aren't you sick of this by now? I know I am. I was sick of it months ago. I often wonder how I'm still with you. And I don't mean ‘with you’, I just mean talking to you. “There's no harm in just talking” - yeah right. You yammer on about things I really could care less about. But the moment I ask you ‘What is this between us? What am I to you?’, you miraculously lose the gift of speech. ‘I don't know’... You don't know? Are you f*cking serious? Maybe I think too deep into these things... Maybe I just know what I want. I want you. I want you to grow up and tell me that you want me too. I want you to fall into my arms and tell me how much you've longed for the moment when you could call me your own. I want you, without the games and the second guesses. You make it hard for me to keep up with your insecurities. You judge us based on your past. This isn't then, this is now. This isn't him, this is me. Just be honest. Not to me, but to yourself. Go with your heart, not with flow.

Tuesday 22 May 2012

Pazes - Rogue States feat. Biblo...

The Next Posts

The next few posts will feature tracks and instrumentals selected by myself and Echoes.

Everything EX/TC.


Forever EX/TC.

Saturday 12 May 2012

Her Text Message.

‘It's stupid things like this that you make me do. I have some things on my mind that I really have to say to you...

I always rush into these things. I get caught up in emotions. I get excited, thinking one day I can call you mine. I say stupid things and forget to be cool. You make me childish and immature. When you don't reply I get insecure. I apologise for anything. I say it means nothing, when it meant everything. I want you more than I'll ever say. I think about you almost every day. When you want something this bad, it has the power to drive you mad. It would hit me hard if you ever go. But I just didn't have the courage to let you know... And I still don't.

xx’

Friday 11 May 2012

Hearts Pt.3

There is love in our bodies and it holds us together.
But pulls us apart when we're holding each other.
We all want something to hold in the night.
We don't care if it hurts or if we're holding too tight.

Thursday 10 May 2012

Hearts Pt.2

There is love in your body but you can't get it out.
It gets stuck in your head, won't come out of your mouth.
Sticks to your tongue and shows on your face, that the sweetest of words have the bitterest taste.

Tuesday 8 May 2012

Hearts Pt.1

There is love in your body but you can't hold it in.
It pours from your eyes and spills from your skin.
Tenderest touch leaves the darkest of marks and the kindest of kisses break the hardest of hearts.

Monday 7 May 2012

Florence + The Machine - Shake it Out


"Regrets collect like old friends.
 Here to relive your darkest moments.
I can see no way... I can see no way.
And all of the ghouls come out to play.

And every demon wants his pound of flesh.
But I like to keep some things to myself.
I like to keep my issues strong.
It's always darkest before the dawn."

Sunday 6 May 2012

Today, Tomorrow, Forever...


The situations I often find myself in do not come about by rounds of conscious decision making. They are random, and like my moods, often inexplicable.

So is this me denouncing responsibility for my own acting? Quite possibility, yes. I believe that I am a product of the today; a result of all the world's injustices. I will be no different tomorrow, for tomorrow will be different from today. This is our reality, this is our forever, and it will always be this way...

It will always be EX/TC.